The Beginning

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The best place to start is the beginning, of all places. I decided I would start a series on my own personal journey of motherhood. I have 8 children and each one has changed the path.

As I strengthened in my own mothering ability, I have learned a few things and each child has changed me, strengthened me, grew me in different ways.

I was young when my path began. I was selfish and worried about only what made me happy. I was free to do whatever I wanted and that was often not the best things.

In September of…

Day in the Life of Mountain Homestead

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The sun peaks in my window around 6:45 am, I try and get a few moments more of rest before the household wakes up. This is, however, a break compared to our summer morning start, so for that I am thankful.

My actual alarm is a bed full of children ready to play and wanting to snuggle me for a few moments. But, by snuggle, I mean fight for who gets to sleep on my right side and then the others jumping on top of me. There are days when this is entirely too stressful, but most of the time…

A short essay on the state of our country

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Yesterday was a day for the history books. For many reasons. I won’t go into my own political leanings, because I really just don’t have any anymore. None of it even matters anymore.

The last year has caused so much division in our nation. We have been played. Creating division is only for the benefit of those who want to destroy us. And we are falling right into their plans.

The media feeds us and we eat it up. We hear the narrative and we decide which side we fall on…

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Picture in your mind. You invite a friend to bring their family to your house for a dinner. All the kids are friends and the whole event is something you are all looking forward to.

You carefully pick out the menu. You go to the store and shop for the ingredients, making sure to buy the best quality you can to impress and bless your friends. The meal you serve is one you have made many times before and you have basically perfected it.

You work all afternoon cooking and preparing the food to serve your guests. Then, they all…

Living with the pain

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Twelve years ago I gave birth to my first son. I was thrilled and it was a wonderful change from the two girls I had already had. However, the year after his birth began the downward spiral of my health.

The first year I just tossed it all up to postpartum body stuff. I figured my hormones were regulating themselves out and eventually things would go back to normal. But they didn’t.

Finally, just after my son had his first birthday, I went and saw a Dr. It turned out I had developed an autoimmune disease, one that would never…

I often hear people criticize other moms for being on their phones so often. I hear about how we need to be present in our children’s lives and not be so distracted. How we are setting the example to our children about what they should be doing in their lives for screens and the use of them versus being active in the real world.

While all these criticisms sound very good and there is some validity in them, they are not realistic. Sometimes I need my phone. Sometimes it is the thing that keeps me sane.

With seven children who…

How isolation and modern motherhood go hand in hand

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Time recently had an article they published about the isolation in motherhood long before there was a worldwide pandemic on the scene. It features photography of mothers in their homes with their children.

I don’t know that they understand just how much they hit the nail on the head with this article.

Over the years of parenting — I have been parenting for 18 years — I have had so many times where I was surrounded by people but felt so alone. …

Building a marriage that takes a lifetime to experience

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Marriage is something that evokes strong feelings for so many. In our current world, we have been trained to focus on the wedding and use marriage as an afterthought. We focus single-mindedly on one day and yet, there is so much more to marriage than a wedding day.

I just had a significant birthday. It was the biggest milestone birthday, in my mind, since I have been married. I turned the big 4-0 this year. That was always the beginning of old age to me, in my mind. This is the beginning of the decline of our youth.

Though I…

And grow in spite of your storms

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“I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart, I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33, ESV)

In this life, there are times when everything is wrong. You overcome one obstacle or challenge only to face another one a minute later.

The relentlessness of these seasons is so daunting and overwhelming that we feel beaten by life. At times things feel almost impossible and the waves of the storm crash around us bringing us down and overwhelming us.

When we go through times like this…

How stepping back helped me to find my voice again

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I have always been a very passionate person. So when I put my mind to something, I usually run with it until it dies.

Last month I made a deal that I would write two pieces a day. I underestimated the amount of time I had to work. I underestimated the amount of time I would be able to get away from my family obligations and being a spouse and all the things.

I write 5–6 days a week. My goal is to publish a piece each of those days. Sometimes more. Sometimes less. Lately it has been less. …

Wife. Mother. Follower of Messiah. Health Advocate. Lover of the journey of life.

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