I Fell Away from Writing
And I felt more lost than ever.
For years I worked on my writing. I joined Medium in 2019 the same year I wrote my first Ebook. The second I started writing I knew I found my passion.
Then the algorithm on this app drastically changed. When before I had been making $25–50 a month on this app, I started making single digit numbers. When the financial benefit started dwindling, so did my writing. I was no longer getting the dopamine hits from creating and writing.
I wrote freelance ghost writing articles for publications about things that were menial and not even on my radar. Several about skincare alone. While I have no problem with skincare and use it myself regularly, it is not something I am passionate about. At least I was not passionate about it then. I wrote these articles simply for the money. Simply to make a living.
There is nothing wrong with doing something for the money alone. I am not saying that trying to survive and pay your bills any means necessary is in any means wrong (within reason, let’s not harm others). The problem came in the sense that I was only writing for others. I was only writing for the money. I stopped writing for myself.
I stopped taking the time to write the things that brought me joy and fulfillment. I didn’t make a point to find a creative…